我不难过了！

this is my third day since I went home

Honestly..

I didn’t include ‘friends visit’ in my holidays’ planning

I decided to be at home for the whole day

and watch through the Hong Kong drama and movie

which I have borrowed from Ah Bit.
I need to go for the Friday night service tonight

Actually I have received a call from Su Ling before the service..

She asked whether I want to go out

with those old friends from Tenom..

Frankly, I refused the invitation without hesitation

I don’t know why~

Maybe it’s because I was ill

It seems that I was always in a bad condition

when I went back to my hometown.

I would always fall sick!

And that would be one of my reasons to refuse them.
After the service I and my parent went to dinner

And you know what?

What a huge shock from those nocturnal!

I guess it’s about 12.30 in the morning

when Tian Loong phoned me!

He asked me to go outside

coz they were outside my house!

God know what was playing in their mind!

There came out four of them..

Tian Loong, Jason, Even and Jiat

They even asked me to go out with them at that time!

Gosh!! My brain isn’t impaired man!

How am I going to hang out with them?

It’s nearly 1 a.m. in the morning!

Give me a break okey?!
I have no deal as well to chat a lil with them..

But there’s one thing that I was really proud of myself!

I HAVE LET IT GO!

I have let go whole of the unhappy memory!

I can even stare straightforwardly into his eyes!

without turning my head away!

I can talk with him with my usual tone!

I can speak with him without extra heartbeat!

Without tension!

I’m great!!

Only god knew how my feeling all these days was..

More than ten times I imagined the scene when I shall meet him.

I imagined what I should talk.

I imagined how I should talk.

I imagined what is the proper way and content that I should speak with him

so that he knew that I lived better than him!
But God arranged the whole thing..

All the things that I considered were in vain

It just went out naturally...

I can’t even review what I have imagined before

But I knew that I did it so well…
So here’s a song, stranger, that I want to send to him…

“...我不难过了

甚至真心希望你能幸福

当我了解你只活在记忆里头

我不恨你了

甚至原谅你的残忍理由

当我了解不爱了连回忆都是负荷
我不恨你了

甚至感谢这样不期而遇

当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人了...”

回家咯^^

盼了又盼
望穿秋水
终于可以在今天踏上归家的路
呵呵~
归心似箭啊
所以早上9.30的飞机
我彻夜未眠
（差不多啦）
为的就是怕自己又像上次一样错过了巴士~
*丢脸*
这次我很乖噢！
早上6.30就出去搭巴士了
呃。。
天色还好黑哦~
幸好有阿伶陪我等巴士涅
大概15分钟左右吧
rapid也来了
人很少哦
感觉上大家都好像还没睡醒
有的人还直接在巴士的座位上打盹~
哈哈
不过老实说
这还是我第一次搭这么早的巴士
看着巴士上的人的各态
看着窗外的天色渐露鱼肚白
心里有种很满足
很充实的感觉
觉得人生
不过就如此
每个人都在过自己的生活
早出晚归
为生活拼搏
呵呵~
很老态的心境吧
这种所谓的体验
也是在我出来读书之后才体会到的
以前？
我还不屑去理会咧
是假期的缘故吧？
要不然为什么check in都要排这么久
这么长？
天啊
我的背酸死了
是不能快点是不是？
好不容易‘挤’进飞机上
放眼一望
walao~
人多到~~
满机咧
我还不赶快找个位就坐下咯
才刚塞好上方的背包坐下
突然有人：
Excuse me!
还顺便指着坐在我隔壁位的人跟他们两个人
酱明显~
分明就是要我让位嘛
搞错没有？
机位没分的咧
随便坐的咧
讲到我就生气！
算啦
我好人做到底
反正我也是一个人
坐哪没所谓！
*晕+口是心非*
好啦
我换位置啦
又有人来跟我提出相同的要求！
啊现在是怎样啊？
啊我是没还钱上机的吗？
为什么一个两个都来找我麻烦？
我连换两次位置咧！
下次我要sue航空公司！
不公平！！
哼！
衰事还没完咧
啊我调来调去最后就坐在两个男人中间！？？
快乐个屁！
帅哥还不用紧
一个老的一个马的
叫我去吃大便吧
睡觉都睡不好
翻来覆去
睡得我腰酸背痛！
那两个小时的机程
是折磨呐。。
不过幸好
我妈没失约
我一到机场就可以立刻上车再转车回我家啦~~
厚~
家
果然是不同的
俗语说得好
龙床不及狗窝！
哈哈。。

我的人生，才正要开始呢~

以前都不懂

自己为什么非要把自己的视野放得那么小

圈子弄得那么挤

搞得好像我的世界里没有了他就会崩塌一样

*汗*

为了一个不会为自己伤心的人

搞得生活一塌糊涂

课业满江红

生活的中心主题除了思念还是思念

很笨吧？

*冷笑*

哼哼。。

现在你要我浪费在这些无聊

伤身

伤神

又伤心的事情上

我还不依咧

人嘛。。

不就都是自私自利的吗

古人有云：

人不为己，天诛地灭呀~~

之前呢我都一直活在自己的框框里

不肯面对现实

走到哪里

想到哪里

深怕一个不小心

又触碰了跟那个负心汉的回忆

可是与其逃避回忆

还不如大胆一点创造一些属于自己的回忆对吧？

这样日积月累

再多不好的回忆都会被覆盖的！

*坚信*

所以啊

就会有了这一班损友

跟你一起笑

一起疯

但是不会跟你一起哭的损友

哈哈

这是友谊的见证呐

*心虚+吐舌头*
朋友们

阿不对

应该是损友们才对

本小姐在这里给你一鞠躬啊

好好收藏在心底吧

感动就不必说出来了

我撩啦

改天再唱“一个像夏天一个像秋天”给你们听吧！

P/S: 不听拉倒！XD

pss: Bentong之旅~友谊之星*呕*haha...

Keep raining...

Haiz..
Today is the 1st day of exam
sucks subject
Pendidikan Moral~~
Actually last night
Ah Ling, Ah Bit and me
we put a big effort on the subject
Yeah we know that the mark is not counted in CGPA
but at least we can score it much more prettier lo^^
Haiz~
Last night we slept at about 2-3am..
*swt*
I almost can't woke up this morning
Luckily Ah Ling found that I'm deadly in dream
so she wake me up
Haha...
That's why I didn't like the exam timetable of this semester lo..
All subjects was settled to start at 9am!!
What the hell!?
Don't they think that 9am is too early??
They should have give us more resting time!
*sigh*
I prefer 2pm better~~
At least can sleep until afternoon..
Haha..=p
Oh ya oh ya~
*sigh again*
I thought that I can buy Joanna and Grace the 'Hymn of Praise'
but when I ask Sze Chuan
he said it's sold out wor..
If i wanna get the latest edition
I still need to wait for quite a long time...
Hmm~
Disappointed~~

ghost movie is terrible =.=lll

Haha... this is my Y2S1 @ study week already.. but both me and Yuko were very 'jin gak'--
At first we manage to study together at school but at last we both felt bored~
and then we went to 1 Utama to watch movie jor..*swt*


I don't know, maybe I really don't have the mood to study gua...
So we said we wanna release our mood lo~
And the best way we have thought is--watch ghost movie!! Haha..

At the moment lehh..
"4bia" is now showing. No choice lo..Jz only can pick this one~

Haiz~not many people watch this movie.
Maybe it has been shown for quite a long time already.
Then u know la..Inside the cineme was cold already, then ppl were not much wor...
the less the ppl, the more the cold***

***Aarrggghhhhh****
who said it was not scary de?! DAMN!!
Da heart almost jumped out la!!
==Conclusion: Thai's product of ghost movie was *&%$#%@$#!===
Don't ever watch it if u are chicken-hearted~

P/S: don't really understand why do we have to torture ourselves in such a way???
Relaxing??XXXXXX
Heart disease??Big possible...