Friday, October 31, 2008

我讨厌我自己!!

我生气!我讨厌!
我生气我自己!
我讨厌我自己!
I hate for being myself!!
我生气自己为什么那么没用!
我生气自己为什么那么无助!
我讨厌我手无缚鸡之力的时候!
我讨厌我成事不足败事有余!
我生气自己为什么没钱!
我生气自己连做一点小事都做不好!
我生气自己每次都要让人家担心!
我怨自己为什么不是含着金锁匙出生的!
为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么
为什么为什么为什么为什么?!
谁能回答我为什么!!
户口被锁住了。
进不去了。
客户服务柜台那里人为什么多了。
等了那么久了。
走了。
气愤了。
怨恨了。
重开户口的琐事办不成了。
机票订不成了。
有家可能归不得了。
可能无法团聚了。
团圆饭吃不了了。
心情糟透了。
脾气坏了。
电话里语气提高了。
场面僵持了。
挂掉电话了。
我可以去死了。
尘加雨!!!
你这个没用的乌龟王八蛋!
你还不如不要做人算了!
生活一塌糊涂!乱七八糟!
不合群又爱耍自闭!
宅透了!不孝女!
连你妹都不如!
*刮醒自己吧*
*最后一踹*

Thursday, October 30, 2008

高校回忆一幕幕重现

*兴奋兴奋*
没想到放短假回来的第一部戏
竟然是High School Musical 3^^
我觉得我这个人还蛮白痴的
HSM1&2 都没看
却学人家走去看毕业版的
*厚~踩一下*
原本昨天和ceek chean等人说定了
今天一起去看的
谁知道那个Luke Lim啦
说什么要修改我们的时间表
然后我今天又没到学校
*欲哭无泪*
*心虚*
所以就跟Ah Bit & Yee Min去看啦~
况且佩哈又不要陪我看~
她说那部戏。。。。
呃。。。
唉~~
*无言*
------------------------
大家都饿肚子啦
又拿不定主意吃什么
就最后裁决去金嘉利
厚~~
服务有够烂的
填好餐单就order 啊
叫这么多次都没人过来服务
什么嘛
我们是来白吃的哦
不付钱的咩
*岂有此理*
当我们快忍无可忍时
终于有人来take order 了
可惜是个不帅的
。。。。。。。
讲话还跟屁酱
问我们勾好了吗?
废话!
没勾好会叫你来吗?
脑长在哪边啊?
不过幸好
上菜的时间
也没有耗了我们半天
只不过
我的牛肉上海菜饭就。。。
吃起来感觉上。。。
像酱油拌饭比较多
还好牛肉嚼劲不错
吃得我牙齿酸死了
哈哈
---------------------------
其实我们是想
反正是小型的戏院嘛
坐后面就舒服点
不用抬头抬得颈都酸了
谁知道我们真的很衰也
一条扶手柱
就正正坦开在我们面前
*臭鸡蛋*
这样子看个屁。。。
挡着挡着
好像有人在你面前挥棒子的感觉
算了
戏好看就行
眼不见为净
嗯。。。
有唱有跳的戏
会让时间过得很快
haha
Yee Min说的话
我也有同感涅
不知为什么
看到别人毕业
会有鼻酸的感觉
反而自己中学毕业时
就没那么伤感
可能是心态的关系吧
不过幸好
世界上有一种东西
叫做回忆
是永远都存在的
当然
除非那一天
你心脏停止跳动了
hahaha
High School's day
很久很久以前。。。
High School's friends
好久好久以前
*感伤ing*

p/s:皆さん お元気ですか?
私ゎお元気です。。。か?

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

At last, --K Box we have come!!--

It has really been a long time
that I wish I could go to sing a song
We are so free in this short semester
We have only two hours classes equally per day...
That's why I say human are despicable..
You know what?
We always wanted to go
either shopping or sing K or loitering
at anywhere we could have been
when we are busy with our assignment or classes.
But somehow
at the time when we were so free
and we were having a lot of idle time
we don't feel to go anywhere else.
Damn~~
By the way, I still din book my flight ticket yet.
I tried to, but the e-banking stuff was sucks!!
Damn it.. I can't login since May
since I was blocked by the service
coz I have exceeded the limit of logging in.
then I was forced to visit the Bank
to get my account live.
I couldn't paid the money..
it was needed to buy the flight ticket.
Yuko accompanied me...
She said SS2 is more convenience
so we went there after class, at about 3pm.
Gosh!!
It's only 7 peoples waiting for the customer service's line!
I have took the number
and waited for nearly 1 hour!
Waited for my number to be called!
I was so frustrated
then I decided to leave.
Since it's about 3.30pm
so we went to the K-Box...
Well.. it's not that super fine as Red Box and Green Box do
but at least we can still satisfied our mood to sing out loud!!
hahahaha....
The receptionist told us that we can sing til 6.30pm..
It's about 3 hours lo~
walao~really punctual lehh that one who collect money..
she came over to collect $$ even though it's not yet 6.3opm**
But hoh~Dunno why la..
they din close our a/c lehh~
I mean the tv scene
that allow us to pick song and see what songs have we chose..
Then we mah continue sing lo!
haha...sing until about 8.30pm..
until we cannot tahan anymore..
Too hungry la..
din eat for the whole day wor..
beh tahan de la~

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

It's the 3rd week though..*Sien+ing*

*Sigh* Cannot deny that the time don't wait for anyone..
Short sems got only 7 teaching weeks
and it's now moving into the third weeks!
A lil bit of tensiousness..
Not really serious..
Coz i can follow up with the Japanese as well^^
But somehow I'm kinda worry about my MLE..
It 'smells' exactly like those I've learnt before.
And I don't know why do Miao has that kind of biased view
she think that those author were sophisticated~?!
Hehe.. Actually i myself do have that kind thought
because they like write in 'un-clear' manner..
They like to leave us some ??-blank-??
at the and of their story
we are needed to find out the theme
that was disguised inside the story..
*fainted*
Why don't they just made it more understandable?!
Im recently listening to a Chinese song sang by Fish Leong
it's title is 不是我不明白(it's not that I'm not understand)
Really nice song indeed..
I have been attracted by it's lyric at first...

Share share here...
~chorus~
不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱
说来无奈
来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在
It's not really the portrayal of my heart
those scene that been sang out
had left me too far...
But the main point here is that ---
we are both grown up
we can treat things generously as we could
and it's not too bad
that we can still be able to care about each other
I hope I can made it..
sooner or later...

Monday, October 27, 2008

get to read literature soon*sigh*

Haiz~ really unexpected that I would 'soak' into
the world of literature once again..
Yup.. Im having my short semester
one of the subjects is Malaysian Literature in English
So called MLE..
It means that there's a lot of short stories and novel
waving thier hands
and smiling brilliantly towards me!
*vomit*
it's a nightmare to me!
last semester i had been captured in the Shakespeare
John Milton
and the middle english and etc..
Now Im re-captured in Lee Kok Liang
K.S. Maniam and etc..
T.T Im going to hell soon!!!
Since one of the novels is 'The Return'
that i have read in secondary school before
(no misunderstood~
It's compulsory in the english subject
i'm not that hardworking la~)
how possible am I to buy that book again?!
I don't wish to own it that much~
So that I asked ma mom to post the novel to me
using pos express^^
haha.. It's not expensive
it cost only RM3~
and I received it after 2 days.
Hmm...
I wish that I could score a flyin color
on this subject
at the end of the year
God bless me~~

haha..have you ever received pos express like this one?
it's my name on the line of the receiver >"<

this is one of the novel that im going to complete about

Sunday, October 26, 2008

家乡的味道

家乡的味道
只有游子才能深深体会的吧?
我其实也不懂自己是不是太过独立了一些。
从幼稚园开始
我就开始了我一个人照料自己的习惯。
自己换衣服
弄东西吃
上学放学。
有时还会想
为什么父母都那么偏心?
为什么我什么都要自己来?
为什么他们就有人帮他们安排?
为什么我就要一个人学会怎样处理事情?
甚至刚上中学要背井离乡
去到另一个陌生的城市读书
我都还是要一个人
学着去辨认
哪里是什么地方。
习惯了寂寞
喧闹反而显得有点做作。
幼稚园,自己上学;
小学,自己搭巴士;
中学前两年,颓废过日子;
第三年,搬迁后的空虚...
家乡的味道
我想我从小就知道是什么
却又不清楚到底是什么。
近在身边的东西
没有人会去珍惜
这是事实。
远在他方的美景
我们都好高骛远。
雾里看花总是美丽的。
拨开云雾后,
丑陋就显现。
近来几天
人红是非多的周董又出新专辑了
稻香这首歌传得沸沸扬扬
只要是有听华语歌的年轻人都应该会唱
个人也不是特别爱
只不过曲前的蝉叫声
却让我想起好多好多的事...
在这种喧哗的城市里
就算是多夜也听不到的吧?
就好像看星星一样
在这边乌烟瘴气
找月亮都难
*夸张*
不过小时候
在乡下赤足奔跑
还被石头割破脚的感觉与画面
确实历历在目。

“...还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好...”

萤火虫啊...
我小时候关上灯睡觉看见时
还以为是什么鬼火~哈哈...
稻的香味?
又有何等人闻过?
大概稻是什么样子也难见。
渐渐长大后
就会不时听到有人嫌弃自己的家乡
认为那里太过落后
可是他们又曾几何时
懂得欣赏那里的美好?
对啊...
家,永远都是最好的地方...
人,总得回到自己的根...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Japanese is hard though interesting

I learned Japanese for the second class today
We learned a lot more than yesterday
A lot lot more than Katakana and Hiragana.
As Toshiko sensei mentioned before
(I myself heard from others
because I have not present at the first lecture.. Hehe..)
we need to learn all these Japanese stuff in just 7 teaching weeks!
It's not impossible to learn all of it
but though, it's also hardly possible.
So we were in a rush in the so-called-Japanese world.
Beside memorizing all the Kata and Hira
we have to understand the meaning
when it was pronounced.
Gosh.. Fighting with the time
It's the second week on the running.
By the time we can't memorize the Kata and Hira so well
and Toshiko was like...
'We are out of time!'
But of course she surely wouldn't say things like that la
because Japanese people are usually very polite and gentle..
Don't know why
I mean most of them
but of course not all of them!
She has teached us very much of sentence constructions
and some of the daily use vocab.
Hush.. I can read the word one by one
but I am not sure
if I can understand it as the way it is.
and you know what?
I'm really jealous with Peiha~Haha..
She don't came to lecture and tutorial today..
according to her explanation
she was lazy to wake up...
*Sigh*
No wonder she would felt lazy to attend the class.
She has understand the whole things ma~~
So she felt bored and sleepy~
each time during the class...
By the way
after the Japanese class was finished
i saw the classmates
holding and studying some Chinese words.
It's the Bi Shun
(something to do with the correct handwriting letter)
and some HanYuPinYin (spelling to the Chinese word).
It reminded me to my childhood
when I'm on my primary one.
It seems super easy for us now
(coz I saw Miao's face was shining^^
Haha..She teached them how to read the HanYuPinYin
according to their label)
but it's the same for us
when we were being teached in that way too!
The only different is they just learn it now.
Actually i truely want to give an applause to them
whom have take Chinese as their elective subjects
because Chinese is something that is easy to learn
but hard to 'get pro'~
in Chinese
it was called易学难精!
So students who took Chinese
かんばって!haha...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

如果可以没有下一次...

我讨厌今天!
不为什么
就因为我今天又要飞回KL来了!
*气*
在自己的狗窝住了差不多3个星期
连我特用的被子都给占上我的味道了
*恶心*haha...
现在又要离开~
真是...
唉!无言啊~~
其实短学期在前两天就已经开课了
只不过是我自己懒惰
硬要买迟两天回来
我心想~~
反正才两科嘛~
平时week one也只是上lecture而已啊~
没有上tutorial的...
应该没什么大问题吧?
结果好死不死一check mail
才发现Zaza说week one就有tutorial了!
天啊~~死了死了!
我还买了这么夜的班机
不死才怪!
唉~~一不做二不休!
反正也于事无补了
就干脆到底吧!
夜机就夜机。
原本我还兴致勃勃地等着上机的说
因为啊
这是第一次我全家四口来为我送机咧~
以往君瑜她们都碰到读书时间啊~
可是今天不知踩到什么狗屎
原本4.25pm的飞机
无端端delayed整整半小时左右
Air Asia也没有做什么特别通知!
*哼!不负责任*
害我还一度以为我是不是有漏了班机什么的!
这还不用紧~
我真是不懂那些搭飞机的人
阿他们是怕飞机会自己飞走掉是不是?
七早八早就排在入仓口。
我又笨嘛~
也跟着去排队!
结果涅...
等吃屎吧!
我的背包里还装着我的肥绿涅!
*shit*肩膀酸死了!
而且啊~
最讨厌的事实就是:
我不懂我干吗要这么早走去排队!
干等!
等屁!
人家(跟我同一班机的人)舒舒服服坐在一边
机场部门一calling连队都不用排
直接插队就好了!
而且还比我更早上飞机!
*王八蛋*
不过好事是有的...
就那么一小点啦!
就是夜机人没酱多!
不然好像上次回家时一样
还要我换来换去!
*跺脚*
人不多,放东西的位置自然就多了
我也不必跟人家争个屁!
哈哈...
我坐的那排中间还是空的涅~呵呵...
唉!从第一次(不久啦,一年半前而已)
坐飞机开始就不喜欢坐飞机的感觉。
我这个人很奇怪的啦!
坐车晕车,坐飞机晕飞机咯!
每次都会有腹胀想要呕吐的感觉。
那种还可以在飞机肚子里吃得津津有味的人
真是厉害啊!
*竖拇指*
两个小时半而已
很快过去的啦!
睡一睡就好!
我也想咧!
差不多快要降落时...
大概还有20分钟吧...
天空好像破了大洞一样也!
天黑黑的~
又打雷又闪电
雨又下得特别大!
飞机舱里到了晚上是不开灯的嘛
避免干扰客人睡觉啊!
所以机身外打雷的时候
可能是在万里长空之上吧~
机内可以感受到那种‘天很亮’的感觉咧...
真是奇怪!
不止哦
说明是下大雨嘛~
云层当然也就特别厚咯!
坐在机内摇摇晃晃(撞到云块嘛!)
又大雨又雷电...
我说飞机师啊~
你真是身负重任咯...
那么多条人命操纵在你手中也!
真是任人鱼肉!
我是说我们这些乘客啦!
好死不死描述灾难的戏看得多
飞机航船失事的也不少
在这种情形之下会想到不好的东西是在所难免的嘛!
那种怕自己见不到家人最后一面的感觉...
不寒而栗!
幸好...
感谢主...
我的班机也平安降落。
不过被淋到像落汤鸡酱是预了的咯!
好彩是姑姑来接我机
不然下大雨拿那么大的luggage
还要一个人搭巴士回家
是很凄惨一下的咯...

Monday, October 13, 2008

a new born baby!

actually i have heard from my mom since month of...
July or August??
I'm not that sure~
But it doesn't matter
at least i have this opportunity to see the baby now^^
I went to my uncle's house (father's bro) tonight...
I'm kind of impatient to meet the baby
Ma sisters said she looks exactly like a 'she' baby..
Erm.. I mean, you know..
some of the baby were not much like their gender
that we can't identify them as a 'he' or 'she'..
Ma big sister did~haha..
People often thought that she was a boy
when she used to be a kid.. Haha..
Well I saw the baby as well..
But why was her skin seems a bit darker than others?
I don't know~and er..
this is a lil hard to say..
the baby's forehead was 'high'??
The Chinese people will say that the kid is smart and clever
if their forehard is 'high'..
but a gal shouldn't have it as well..
It's not that good looking~
So ma mum asked ma uncle's wife
to rub the baby's forehead frequently
so that the forehead can be shorter??
haha.. Maybe somebody don't believe it
but it works!
but there's still something that im not satisfy with~
it's her name>"<
Haiz...
really dunno what to said about it..
I always dream to give a special name to ma children someday
so i was kinda care about what those baby was named..
Her name was not that terrible
it's just a lil tacky~
I mean...
not very much of today's ppl will get their children a name like that..
Her name is 秀丽
according to ma mum
清秀又美丽...
*Sigh*
the meaning is good
means delicate and pretty
but... HAIZ~~~
Nvm la!
As long as the baby is healthy
the name is not that important la..

this is the baby..

the pic is not bright enuf..if not shld be more cutie~

Saturday, October 11, 2008

老朋友的时间

哈哈。。
太好了
今天终于可以跟阿茵叙旧了
从我回来到现在就计划了很久说
可是她要念书啊
阿再不然就是我啊。。
*懒惰*
一天到晚只知道躲在家里追电视剧
呵呵。。
其实也没什么好聊的啦
来来去去说的还不是那几样话题~
旧同学啊
母校啊
生活近况啊
聊到差不多咯~
就说说是非咯
呵呵
女人嘛~
除了这些
当然还聊些人生计划
未来还长得很呢
再过一年半左右我就面临毕业的危机了
这一年半听起来还好长呵~
其实一眨眼就过去了
真的会好快好快的
所以啊
不计划一下怎么行对吧
我们俩还是到回最常去的地方
飞机场
哈哈。。
小地方没什么好逛的啦
聊着聊着
我突然想起最后一次和上一班人聚在一起的时候
我们也是聚在同一地点
如今回想
当初的热忱只剩下冷冷清清
当初的一群人也只剩下我们俩
大家都各奔前程去了
做工的做工
读书的读书
不过不管怎样
我相信只要大家还保有那颗赤子之心
多少年后重逢
我们都还可以是朋友
大家要加油啊
期待大家凯旋归来的那天...

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

我们の医院也不错の啦!

今天有点小乖...
呵呵~
至少没有像前几天一样睡到太阳晒屁股
那是因为我要陪我妈去医院复诊啦!
我们没去私人医院哦。。
那么贵!
而且妈咪已经见过政府那位医生很多次了嘛~
怎样都是熟的比较好谈嘛!
我的家乡是个小县
名叫根地咬...
唉~说来惭愧!
以前在亚庇念书人家还会问我那是什么地方
明明两地的车程就只需要两个小时!
近来到西马念书更糟糕!
沙巴那么大。。
说出来还真的没人知道!
*汗+流泪*
其实也不能怨什么的。。
本来我家乡还算是个‘麻雀虽小,五脏俱全’的地方
无奈近几年的非法移民问题越来就越严重
丝毫没有削减人数的看头
导致本地方乌烟瘴气
臭名远播~~
我还记得很清楚
在我念中学的时候
(中学不在我家乡
那是离我家乡要半小时车程的微型独中)
有一位教我华语的刘姓老师曾经说过:
如果把小孩放到我家乡居住
不出三个月一定会学坏!
真是气愤啊!
讲到我们好像都是坏孩子的感觉!
回来回来~
不要看我们地方小小哦!
本地医院可是不赖的哦!
那是间沙巴州数一数二的大医院呢!
很多实习的护士医生都在此实习的
我就曾遇过实习的护士朋友啦!
下图照片里
门上黏的牌子
是正在里面值勤的医生的名字咯!
那医生的名字怪怪的!
看起来像是泰文发音的感觉
可是念起来又发不出那个音
我陪妈咪进去让他检查的时候更好笑!
他的口音听起来像是华人讲马来话
可是样子又黑黝黝的...
不太像是华人吧?
最后我也就放弃猜测啦!
后来想想:
自己也真多余!
明明去检查却搞得像去实地观察似的!
哈哈。。
我倒觉得那医生怪可怜的~
帮病人看病还要被人家评头论足一番!
应该也只有我会那么无聊去评论医生的口音和外表吧?
哈哈。。。
对了对了~
我爸是驾的士的嘛...
我妈就说不要打扰我爸做生意
不要麻烦他来开车载我们
所以我们就自己搭巴士去市镇咯!
表以为很平常咧~
我们小地方的巴士
不像Rapid KL lehh...
是那些迷你巴士
可以说是van的变相形态吧
呵呵~~
我妈就真的是受不了啦~
说很挤wor...
那些姓马的啦
土著啦也很多
我就还好啦...
还蛮享受的~
挤挤车
吹吹风
写意人生~
哈哈.....
谁叫我读书的地方没这么多的青翠碧绿?!
我家乡の医院外观
其中一栋啦~

我妈复诊の二号病房

Sunday, October 05, 2008

家庭日是真的可遇不可求的啊~

好巧哦~
虽然今年我自己的路有点崎岖
不过重要的大日子都安排在神的祝福之下呢。。
首先就是我的生日。。
虽然嘴巴上一直都说不介意
但其实有谁在生日的时候没家人陪
又不能和朋友到处去玩乐的涅?
只不过因为当天碰巧是安息日
所以我一整天都是在教会咯!
又刚好跟那里的弟兄姐妹不是很熟
也不好意思到处跟人家说自己生日吧?
跳开话题~
今天也是大日子哦!
哈哈。。是我爸妈的结婚纪念日!
还不止哦!
今天是安息日,也是教会的布道会!
你说是不是很好的安排涅?
呵呵~所以我们安息日聚会完毕之后就赶紧回家准备咯~
在这之前呢
我跟我妹就去买点东西啦!
在路上她就跟我提到说,
之前有一个跟她们同校的女生被人看见...
她穿着小背心和短裤
在夜晚的大街上跟一班她的大男生同学闲逛..
在我们这种小地方
真的好事就无人问津,坏事就传千里~
一个女生晚上跟大半男生逛街
还不被后面的人说她这样那样吗?
唉~~其实我个人还真纳闷!
我了解一个人的穿着打扮是可以透露出他个人的性格
只不过也不能因为那个人跟朋友晚上出去
穿得比较清凉点
而刚好男生朋比较多
就说她骚对吧?
不过这些事
是要亲身经历过才能体会到的啦!
我可以信誓旦旦地说我个人没什么好
就是够平凡!
趁着新年就去染了头发
顺便剪了个小尾巴~
就因为这样
被说成是不良少女!
天!我的信誉!
回来回来~
前面说过了吧?
我父母的结婚纪念日啊!
布道会之后我妈原本说要大伙一起去吃泰式火锅的..
只不过刚好我爸肠胃不舒服
就转移目的地前往KFC!
哈哈。。
之前跟那群猪朋狗友吃鸡肉块时倒没有觉得有什么可口的
可是跟家人来吃感觉就是不一样!
呵呵。。
可能是因为不用自己付钱吧!
*打~~不孝女*

Saturday, October 04, 2008

童年呀童年。。

哎哟~
这几天只顾着在家泡港剧
泡得眼睛就快变熊猫眼了!
哈哈...
就是说每晚都很夜才睡觉
可以算是熬夜吧!
而且是没目的的熬夜!*心虚*
有时候自己也会坏坏地想:
自己这样子继续熬夜
不懂会不会真的有一天早上醒不来了?
*Touch woodx2*
今晚上咧...
就如往常一样
有星期五的晚间聚会嘛!
玉惠那个小肥妹
—我的小表妹啦—
长得越来越肥~
上个学期回来到现在看到她又肥了~
哈哈。。。
岔开话题一下~
我说人呐...
真是奇怪的动物!
为什么小时候长得肥就是可爱?
到你长大了长得肥就是肥婆、就是不好看、就是丑?
算了!
这种见仁见智的观念
说到几世大概也说不完。
回来回来~~
就说那个小表妹长得胖胖的
可爱嘛。。
又很黏我们
所以聚会都会坐在我们隔壁
她刚上Pre-kindergarten不久
常常会带一些小课外书到会堂里当练习。
哈哈。。
说来好笑!
真是童言童语啊!
就说有一幅小图案
是砂拉越鸟的图
也不懂是书本身的问题还是什么
小表妹就很认真地问我们:
“姐姐,为什么这只鸡的嘴巴酱大的?”
我们几姐妹听了也不知是该笑还是该哭好=.=lll
开什么玩笑?
小孩子的教育是很重要的!
所以我们就赶快跟她解释清楚啦...
说也奇怪!
现在的小孩子也真是聪明地让人心寒~
小小的人竟然也会不好意思!
腼腆地别过脸笑笑当自己没问过?唉!
所以我说啊
如果以后连活生生的鸡都不会再见到的话
恐怕我们都很难向小一辈的人解释得清楚咯!