无声胜有声，有声胜唏嘘

在没有什么想法的时候，题目就要特别醒目。

所以题目是随性的，没什么重要性。只是想让文的一开始掷地有声而已。

好像，喜欢文字，或语言，或文化，的人，都比较感性。是吗？

可以突发奇想去思考一些根本就没人在意的事情。一些芝麻绿豆也会让你深思好久。

我以为那些人生已过半的人，就算是踏实了。其实，风起云涌的日子从来就不曾间断。

原来，不只是十几二十岁的人会耍忧郁。连年近四十的人也会在意，在什么时候别人会觉得他是重要的。

然后，说到在不在意这档事，对于人生没什么目标的人，我该怎么去安慰？该怎么去劝解？

我跟他说：去教会吧。听一些道理，领悟一些比较纯净的灵粮。

他说：去教会很无聊。（那是因为你里面已经石化了吧）

我：那不然找一些你有兴趣的事情来做。

他：没有。而且生活工作尽是无趣，另一半也没成功虏获她的心，觉得自己很失败，人生没啥意义。

我：一切尽在无言中。。。。。

难不成你认为我们都顺风顺水吗？单身这么久，我总不能三不五时就要死要活的吧。再说，别人也没少奋斗，不可能见人就说自己多努力多难得嘛。

好吧，我承认我是非常享受单身的生活，人各有志嘛。

越扯越远了我。

我现在身处哪个阶段，我也不清楚。只是实在庆幸自己有一个健全的家庭，还有一个永远等候的祂。

依然忙里偷闲

我不敢大言不惭地说自己很忙，因为在这其中我还是能抽到时间让自己无所事事。
看清楚了。
是无所事事！

然而却是充足的日子。
学校宿舍两头跑，还要筹备教会的项目，还有其他的二三事。
不错不错。

前不久参与了Youth Life Camp，为刚结束的十月份划下了充满疲劳但却圆满的句点。
细节我也懒得娓娓道来，反正过程我体验到了，收下了，保存着。

仍然要提的是，作为主办单位的一份子，很满足。
可是我下一次可以不要做主办的那一方吗？*拜托*我也想纯粹的，只是做一个participant。

並不絕情

我很多時候覺得自己絕情。其實才不是！

我重情，所以才絕情。

你口口聲聲說自己有多委屈，有多難受，這樣有用嗎？

你的反反復複，我早就不再理會。只是難為了某些人，某些對你還存有希望的人，她們掛念你，還把你放在心上。

你覺得行得通的方法，其實是行不通的。

你覺得那些是你好朋友，是你的知己的人，其實根本不是。

你覺得好聽的那些話，其實說到底就只不過是紙上談兵的廢話。

總有一天，總有一天，你會為你自己對那些可信的人的猜疑，給自己一個響亮的巴掌。

那個時候你就會懂得，我的絕情，相對來說，是多麼得合情合理。

毒舌美人

有這麼一些女孩子，我看到她們的第一眼就會喜歡。

總覺得她們有那麼一點不食人間煙火。

看來是我把她們仙女化了。

別人跟我說：外表中看不中用，別被矇騙了。

我還不相信。

一直到一些事情的發生，讓我有機會跟她們接觸，才讓我驚覺：好一個毒舌美人！

爲什麽那個漂亮的臉蛋可以有那麼不屑的面貌？

爲什麽那片紅潤的嘴唇會說出那麼毒辣的言辭？

真是可惜了。

甜美笑容的背後竟然那麼陰險。

Tsk Tsk Tsk

我鄙視你。

這些所謂的假象啊，還是有人依然相信著。

就像掩耳盜鈴的人一樣。

就像把頭藏進土裡的鴕鳥一樣。

我也只能夠無言歎息，問一句：Porque？

Swallow and Digest

There are so many things happened amongst us recently.

All of these -- friendship, accompanying, together-ness, emotions, boy-girl relationship...

At first, I would try to console, telling this and that, giving advices.

Now I don't want to bother anymore.

Whatever you want to do, or you feel as you want to do, just go ahead. They are non of my business after all.

Boycotting, fine. Back-stabbing, okay.

Do you think you are the only one who has harsh feeling when you acted that way? NO! We all did.

What more could I have done? I can only shut my mouth, watch, observe, accept, and then swallow and digest.

I am too tired to entertain you anymore. You won't understand no matter how hard we have tried to explain.

Bye bye.

Birthday "surprise"

I have been thinking over and over, whether or not should I write this post. Since this blog has went quite "public" already.

And then I came to realize, why should I bother so much? This is my blog, my personal blog. Even if the post I wrote offended someone else, you can just ignore my post. This is a place to express what have slipped through my mind, and the happenings as well.
For whom who had read my "syok sendiri" post, you all know that I don't like surprises and celebration which I think are troublesome.

During that special day of mine, I woke up, surprisingly, quite early in the morning.

I opened youtube, listened to Bruno Mars' The Lazy Song.

In another window, I opened my favourite Domo Kun.

I laid on my bed, read some articles. Tried to relax myself as much as I could in just one day.

I enjoyed, and I felt blessed. What a nice day :D

That was a friday night. I attended friday night service with other church members as usual. There were only a few of them knew that it was my birthday. I told them because I assumed they would respect me on things that I dislike.

After the dinner-together, when I came out from the church van, I saw a cake at the front seat.

I said no, definitely no for that. Then one of them whispered to me that there will be only 4 of them.

I "warned" them in a way of kidding that I don't want thing like this. They promised me they would not do so. They just kinda forced me to cut the cake, so called traditional.

Things always would not turn out just like what you want it to be.

After the service ended, those in the church van wanted to celebrate with me.

They followed me back home. Screaming my name, annoucing loudly that it is my birthday. I can just choose to entertain them.

I knew the good intension of you all. But I really don't feel like doing this. Especially the birthday song and the blowing of candles. and also when you guys asked me to bite the candles out of the cake =.=

Out of all that, I particularly dislike the face that one of them showed. I have already mentioned N-times that I don't need all these. But you guys insisted, so I am fine with coordination.

But can you just show some respect to me? Don't try to push me so hard. You made me said something harsh, you made me unintentionally build up awkwardness among us. You made me feel like I am the one to be blamed. Your attitude made others feel like I don't appreciate what you all have did.

What the fuck? Why am I apologizing to every each of them in the middle of the night? It was my f*cking birthday, and I was saying sorry! Deng!!

and so, that was my so called "birthday surprise", which I ruined it, and I felt uneasy about.

Westlake 有變態！

對！就是像你看到的標題一樣！

Westlake有變態！！！

平時我把曬幹了的衣服收回房間之後都不會第一時間就折好疊好。我習慣把它們先掛在衣櫥裏面，隔了一天之後再整理。

今天早上我把前天和昨天收回來的衣服整理好了。打算去洗澡之際，發現-----------內衣不見了！！！！！(╰_╯)#

我靠！！！我靠！！！！(#‵′)靠

到底是哪一個烏龜王八蛋做了這麼TMD讓我生氣的事？！

靠(#‵′)靠

我靠( ‵o′)凸

我靠( ‵o′)凸

我靠( ‵o′)凸

我靠( ‵o′)凸

我靠( ‵o′)凸

貼身衣物的數量都已經不是卓卓有餘的了，這麼一來我又得花一筆錢去添購那該死的貼身衣物。

現在的心情已經不是生氣兩個字可以概括的了。我如今多麼希望自己是那些該死的憤怒的小鳥！我要變成黑色的那隻炸彈鳥，看到烏龜王八蛋的時候可以飛奔過去一把將他炸個稀巴爛！

我要把你炸得稀巴爛！