Friday, October 31, 2008

我讨厌我自己!!

我生气!我讨厌!
我生气我自己!
我讨厌我自己!
I hate for being myself!!
我生气自己为什么那么没用!
我生气自己为什么那么无助!
我讨厌我手无缚鸡之力的时候!
我讨厌我成事不足败事有余!
我生气自己为什么没钱!
我生气自己连做一点小事都做不好!
我生气自己每次都要让人家担心!
我怨自己为什么不是含着金锁匙出生的!
为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么
为什么为什么为什么为什么?!
谁能回答我为什么!!
户口被锁住了。
进不去了。
客户服务柜台那里人为什么多了。
等了那么久了。
走了。
气愤了。
怨恨了。
重开户口的琐事办不成了。
机票订不成了。
有家可能归不得了。
可能无法团聚了。
团圆饭吃不了了。
心情糟透了。
脾气坏了。
电话里语气提高了。
场面僵持了。
挂掉电话了。
我可以去死了。
尘加雨!!!
你这个没用的乌龟王八蛋!
你还不如不要做人算了!
生活一塌糊涂!乱七八糟!
不合群又爱耍自闭!
宅透了!不孝女!
连你妹都不如!
*刮醒自己吧*
*最后一踹*

Thursday, October 30, 2008

高校回忆一幕幕重现

*兴奋兴奋*
没想到放短假回来的第一部戏
竟然是High School Musical 3^^
我觉得我这个人还蛮白痴的
HSM1&2 都没看
却学人家走去看毕业版的
*厚~踩一下*
原本昨天和ceek chean等人说定了
今天一起去看的
谁知道那个Luke Lim啦
说什么要修改我们的时间表
然后我今天又没到学校
*欲哭无泪*
*心虚*
所以就跟Ah Bit & Yee Min去看啦~
况且佩哈又不要陪我看~
她说那部戏。。。。
呃。。。
唉~~
*无言*
------------------------
大家都饿肚子啦
又拿不定主意吃什么
就最后裁决去金嘉利
厚~~
服务有够烂的
填好餐单就order 啊
叫这么多次都没人过来服务
什么嘛
我们是来白吃的哦
不付钱的咩
*岂有此理*
当我们快忍无可忍时
终于有人来take order 了
可惜是个不帅的
。。。。。。。
讲话还跟屁酱
问我们勾好了吗?
废话!
没勾好会叫你来吗?
脑长在哪边啊?
不过幸好
上菜的时间
也没有耗了我们半天
只不过
我的牛肉上海菜饭就。。。
吃起来感觉上。。。
像酱油拌饭比较多
还好牛肉嚼劲不错
吃得我牙齿酸死了
哈哈
---------------------------
其实我们是想
反正是小型的戏院嘛
坐后面就舒服点
不用抬头抬得颈都酸了
谁知道我们真的很衰也
一条扶手柱
就正正坦开在我们面前
*臭鸡蛋*
这样子看个屁。。。
挡着挡着
好像有人在你面前挥棒子的感觉
算了
戏好看就行
眼不见为净
嗯。。。
有唱有跳的戏
会让时间过得很快
haha
Yee Min说的话
我也有同感涅
不知为什么
看到别人毕业
会有鼻酸的感觉
反而自己中学毕业时
就没那么伤感
可能是心态的关系吧
不过幸好
世界上有一种东西
叫做回忆
是永远都存在的
当然
除非那一天
你心脏停止跳动了
hahaha
High School's day
很久很久以前。。。
High School's friends
好久好久以前
*感伤ing*

p/s:皆さん お元気ですか?
私ゎお元気です。。。か?

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

At last, --K Box we have come!!--

It has really been a long time
that I wish I could go to sing a song
We are so free in this short semester
We have only two hours classes equally per day...
That's why I say human are despicable..
You know what?
We always wanted to go
either shopping or sing K or loitering
at anywhere we could have been
when we are busy with our assignment or classes.
But somehow
at the time when we were so free
and we were having a lot of idle time
we don't feel to go anywhere else.
Damn~~
By the way, I still din book my flight ticket yet.
I tried to, but the e-banking stuff was sucks!!
Damn it.. I can't login since May
since I was blocked by the service
coz I have exceeded the limit of logging in.
then I was forced to visit the Bank
to get my account live.
I couldn't paid the money..
it was needed to buy the flight ticket.
Yuko accompanied me...
She said SS2 is more convenience
so we went there after class, at about 3pm.
Gosh!!
It's only 7 peoples waiting for the customer service's line!
I have took the number
and waited for nearly 1 hour!
Waited for my number to be called!
I was so frustrated
then I decided to leave.
Since it's about 3.30pm
so we went to the K-Box...
Well.. it's not that super fine as Red Box and Green Box do
but at least we can still satisfied our mood to sing out loud!!
hahahaha....
The receptionist told us that we can sing til 6.30pm..
It's about 3 hours lo~
walao~really punctual lehh that one who collect money..
she came over to collect $$ even though it's not yet 6.3opm**
But hoh~Dunno why la..
they din close our a/c lehh~
I mean the tv scene
that allow us to pick song and see what songs have we chose..
Then we mah continue sing lo!
haha...sing until about 8.30pm..
until we cannot tahan anymore..
Too hungry la..
din eat for the whole day wor..
beh tahan de la~

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

It's the 3rd week though..*Sien+ing*

*Sigh* Cannot deny that the time don't wait for anyone..
Short sems got only 7 teaching weeks
and it's now moving into the third weeks!
A lil bit of tensiousness..
Not really serious..
Coz i can follow up with the Japanese as well^^
But somehow I'm kinda worry about my MLE..
It 'smells' exactly like those I've learnt before.
And I don't know why do Miao has that kind of biased view
she think that those author were sophisticated~?!
Hehe.. Actually i myself do have that kind thought
because they like write in 'un-clear' manner..
They like to leave us some ??-blank-??
at the and of their story
we are needed to find out the theme
that was disguised inside the story..
*fainted*
Why don't they just made it more understandable?!
Im recently listening to a Chinese song sang by Fish Leong
it's title is 不是我不明白(it's not that I'm not understand)
Really nice song indeed..
I have been attracted by it's lyric at first...

Share share here...
~chorus~
不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱
说来无奈
来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在
It's not really the portrayal of my heart
those scene that been sang out
had left me too far...
But the main point here is that ---
we are both grown up
we can treat things generously as we could
and it's not too bad
that we can still be able to care about each other
I hope I can made it..
sooner or later...

Monday, October 27, 2008

get to read literature soon*sigh*

Haiz~ really unexpected that I would 'soak' into
the world of literature once again..
Yup.. Im having my short semester
one of the subjects is Malaysian Literature in English
So called MLE..
It means that there's a lot of short stories and novel
waving thier hands
and smiling brilliantly towards me!
*vomit*
it's a nightmare to me!
last semester i had been captured in the Shakespeare
John Milton
and the middle english and etc..
Now Im re-captured in Lee Kok Liang
K.S. Maniam and etc..
T.T Im going to hell soon!!!
Since one of the novels is 'The Return'
that i have read in secondary school before
(no misunderstood~
It's compulsory in the english subject
i'm not that hardworking la~)
how possible am I to buy that book again?!
I don't wish to own it that much~
So that I asked ma mom to post the novel to me
using pos express^^
haha.. It's not expensive
it cost only RM3~
and I received it after 2 days.
Hmm...
I wish that I could score a flyin color
on this subject
at the end of the year
God bless me~~

haha..have you ever received pos express like this one?
it's my name on the line of the receiver >"<

this is one of the novel that im going to complete about

Sunday, October 26, 2008

家乡的味道

家乡的味道
只有游子才能深深体会的吧?
我其实也不懂自己是不是太过独立了一些。
从幼稚园开始
我就开始了我一个人照料自己的习惯。
自己换衣服
弄东西吃
上学放学。
有时还会想
为什么父母都那么偏心?
为什么我什么都要自己来?
为什么他们就有人帮他们安排?
为什么我就要一个人学会怎样处理事情?
甚至刚上中学要背井离乡
去到另一个陌生的城市读书
我都还是要一个人
学着去辨认
哪里是什么地方。
习惯了寂寞
喧闹反而显得有点做作。
幼稚园,自己上学;
小学,自己搭巴士;
中学前两年,颓废过日子;
第三年,搬迁后的空虚...
家乡的味道
我想我从小就知道是什么
却又不清楚到底是什么。
近在身边的东西
没有人会去珍惜
这是事实。
远在他方的美景
我们都好高骛远。
雾里看花总是美丽的。
拨开云雾后,
丑陋就显现。
近来几天
人红是非多的周董又出新专辑了
稻香这首歌传得沸沸扬扬
只要是有听华语歌的年轻人都应该会唱
个人也不是特别爱
只不过曲前的蝉叫声
却让我想起好多好多的事...
在这种喧哗的城市里
就算是多夜也听不到的吧?
就好像看星星一样
在这边乌烟瘴气
找月亮都难
*夸张*
不过小时候
在乡下赤足奔跑
还被石头割破脚的感觉与画面
确实历历在目。

“...还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好...”

萤火虫啊...
我小时候关上灯睡觉看见时
还以为是什么鬼火~哈哈...
稻的香味?
又有何等人闻过?
大概稻是什么样子也难见。
渐渐长大后
就会不时听到有人嫌弃自己的家乡
认为那里太过落后
可是他们又曾几何时
懂得欣赏那里的美好?
对啊...
家,永远都是最好的地方...
人,总得回到自己的根...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Japanese is hard though interesting

I learned Japanese for the second class today
We learned a lot more than yesterday
A lot lot more than Katakana and Hiragana.
As Toshiko sensei mentioned before
(I myself heard from others
because I have not present at the first lecture.. Hehe..)
we need to learn all these Japanese stuff in just 7 teaching weeks!
It's not impossible to learn all of it
but though, it's also hardly possible.
So we were in a rush in the so-called-Japanese world.
Beside memorizing all the Kata and Hira
we have to understand the meaning
when it was pronounced.
Gosh.. Fighting with the time
It's the second week on the running.
By the time we can't memorize the Kata and Hira so well
and Toshiko was like...
'We are out of time!'
But of course she surely wouldn't say things like that la
because Japanese people are usually very polite and gentle..
Don't know why
I mean most of them
but of course not all of them!
She has teached us very much of sentence constructions
and some of the daily use vocab.
Hush.. I can read the word one by one
but I am not sure
if I can understand it as the way it is.
and you know what?
I'm really jealous with Peiha~Haha..
She don't came to lecture and tutorial today..
according to her explanation
she was lazy to wake up...
*Sigh*
No wonder she would felt lazy to attend the class.
She has understand the whole things ma~~
So she felt bored and sleepy~
each time during the class...
By the way
after the Japanese class was finished
i saw the classmates
holding and studying some Chinese words.
It's the Bi Shun
(something to do with the correct handwriting letter)
and some HanYuPinYin (spelling to the Chinese word).
It reminded me to my childhood
when I'm on my primary one.
It seems super easy for us now
(coz I saw Miao's face was shining^^
Haha..She teached them how to read the HanYuPinYin
according to their label)
but it's the same for us
when we were being teached in that way too!
The only different is they just learn it now.
Actually i truely want to give an applause to them
whom have take Chinese as their elective subjects
because Chinese is something that is easy to learn
but hard to 'get pro'~
in Chinese
it was called易学难精!
So students who took Chinese
かんばって!haha...